I have finally hit rock bottom or maybe I should say top of my weight scale. I have tried loosing weight over the past few years with no success. Let’s see, I have done personal training, group training, boot camps, various nutrition programs, no carbs, low carbs, higher protein, not eating after 7pm, individual counseling with a nutritionist and the list just goes on and on. I have read various books: Eat to Live, The Core Diet, The Hormone Diet, Volumetrics, Eat Right for Your Blood Type, and all have great principles in their own right but for some reason I struck out.
I do have a million excuses, which I do think are valid, going through menopause at 38, going on an antidepressant a couple years ago to deal with my step fathers death, which since that time I have a gained 30 pounds. I feel like my metabolism has just stopped. Is it elevated cortisol, not eating the right food combinations, portion control, wrong types of exercise? It must be a combination of all of the above, I just want to give up. So now I am almost 50 pounds over my goal weight. Just to say that makes me cringe, but I am coming clean.
Do I have no willpower? No follow through. I see friends stop drinking soda and they loose, or make very small adjustments to their lifestyle and they are two pant sizes smaller. In talking with the nutritionist, she said there is a study of about 30,000 people who lost over 75 pounds and kept it off, and the bottom line is that they all lost and kept it off in their own way; that wasn’t the answer I wanted. I am looking for that silver bullet that will work. She tells me that I need to find my own formula and its trial and error, really, thats great, because I am close to only being able to fit into sweatpants.
Total body Liposuction is what I need.
I joined a gym in another town so I didn’t run into people I know. I think when you have a significant amount of weight to tackle you want to do it privately. So in a weak moment, I purchased the Jillian Michael’s Weight Revolution. I was memorized by the infomercial, transformation in 90 days, too good to be true. The box finally arrived and I opened it and thought what the hell was I thinking. I am not going to do this everyday, although I need too, but forget it, I just packed it up and out the door it goes.
Yesterday I joined Weight Watchers on line. Now I have tried this several times over the years. The first time was when I weighed 114 pounds around my wedding 13 years ago and I was upset that I had gone from 110-114. I think I needed my head examined. I haven’t had the greatest success with it, but my next door neighbors joined so I am jumping on the bandwagon again.
My husband told me this morning that he is proud of me for joining and told me that he has watched me in my “habitat” over these years and that my key to WW is not to modify. I love to modify just about everything. So today is the first real day of my WW journey, we will see if this is the magic I have been looking for.
If you have tried WW I would love you to share your success.